TheCourtRose

The first time I heard AC/DC you danced in a dress from your mom's closet, barefoot on fraying living room carpet You melted to the floor, kissing your girlfriend on the mouth Your mom in the doorway, with meth-sick eyes, watched indulgently Thunderstruck I wanted to dance with you, wanted my hands on your smooth white thighs Your mom never liked me We shot Sour Apple Snapps in your kitchen and always knew when the paintings were slanted your mom was in the bedroom A life of erosion You kissed girls and had sleepovers in a house more empty than not, with time enough to be good at math and write stories with me But eventually you left, and now you have boyfriends and apartments, and no one to protect I never see you If every time you see me you taste sour apples in your mouth and see crooked paintings on the wall- you won't want to see me at all

She won’t touch you She never does Just shows up late in a red-pepper dress with black heels and a smile Wearing promises of love she will never fulfill

1 I'm in bed with you again I am kissing your pouting mouth and soft eyelids You cling to me like a reckless burr I can't seem to disentangle myself from your smooth limbs God you're everything I wanted to be your delicate body wedged neatly into mine Every breath I take your arms squeeze tighter Your hip bones dig into me I want to cradle you, seduce you, fuck you, kill you, be you How long have we lain together like this? a day an hour half my lifetime I don't know if I want you to stay but I am too weak to make you go You knew which is why you came back I'm not sure you ever really left 2 During your absence I picked up smoking, not often but just enough to cut the frays of an anxious mind I never did learn to crave cigarettes the way I craved you 3 I can't sleep I'm not used to sharing my bed You're polite enough You don't hog the covers You don't kick or talk But you're here in my space,