Acid Bones

Familiar Discontentment
like acid in my bones.
Eating, gnawing, chewing
from the inside- out.
Thoughts,
wondrous, dark thoughts,
intangible and useless without manifestation.
Lamenting the false promises of others,
but nothing to give but empty dreams, too.
So hungry
for a life of purpose.
Starving.
Nothing so far
can slake this appetite,
eating me alive.
Old plans trickle heedlessly to the floor
from a mouth slack with indecision.
No matter where I go, who I love,
where I live,
eventually the Discontentment opens
its gaping maw-
swallowing me away, crunching my bones
and smiling,
with my ragged flesh caught in its teeth.

Comments

  1. AnonymousDecember 22, 2010 at 3:51 AM

    Your bones are strong bones.

    It will work out - if you want it to.

    ReplyDelete

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