Hollow

the picture frames are empty now
filing away photos to look at again one day
but not today

heartbeats echo in my chest
reverberating against rattling bones
there was so much of you inside me
too much, probably

starving for something that cannot be given
only rediscovered in time
what to do with an entire day ahead?
the repercussion of handing you back your life
was getting mine back in return

it all feels so hollow

empty hallways, empty picture frames, empty heartbeats

waiting for the moment when I start to fill in
all those lonely places
to wake up and know exactly what to do with my day
to find I am occupying all my own space
without you

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